I'm not crazy, I'm just sad.
Hello, my name is _____, and this is my side blog full of suppressed feelings and semi motivational words to help everyone who feels the same way as I do. I've had a past of self harm, an on-off eating disorder, and my friends have all left me because of how I am. But I've learned that it's not my fault - it's theirs for being so closed minded about my issues. I am not in any way pro-mia/pro-ana, OR pro-self harm. I'm just a fucked up 17 year old girl in a fucked up world. Don't fall into the trap of pretending everything's fine when you know it isn't. And don't hold strong opinions about things you don't understand.
I want to fucking SCREAM.
Every five minutes someone is coming to me with their problems. And maybe it’s my fault since I can’t turn people away because I HATE when people do that to me, but I don’t even get a chance to breathe. Okay, normally, I’m happy to help people. I love helping people. But none of them give a shit about how I’m doing, or my mental state when they suddenly start talking to me. It’s like…can I get one break? Please? Just for a little bit? Or could you at least say ‘hey, hi, how are you?’ before you start throwing at me every single thing wrong in your life?I know. It’s hard. Life is fucking hard. But for just 10 seconds will you please let me THINK before I have to come up with a solution to your problems?
Rant over, I’m sorry if this seems rude. I don’t intend it to be.
Anonymous asked: whats your main blog?
Oh, sorry, I don’t tell people on anon :/
Come off anon and I might tell you?
Our Downfall
I remember when I told you manic depression runs in my family
you just sat there
I remember when I told you it’s affecting me and I’m depressed
you laughed and said ‘no you’re not, stop joking’
I remember when I started cutting myself
when you found out, you told everyone
I remember when I told you I was getting help
you didn’t believe me
I remember when I had a relapse after doing good in my recovery
you ignored how far I’d gotten, and threatened to get a psychiatrist
I remember when we got in that argument
you made it seem like you were the victim
I remember when I said I was angry at how you treated me
you ignored me for two weeks because of my response to you
I remember when I said I was probably leaving
you just said ‘have fun in life’
I remember when we used to be best friends
I don’t think you want to
Anonymous asked: do you have a crush on any of your followers?
I already want to shower my followers in glitter for putting up with my rants. I love you all. <3
But a crush? Maybe. (You’re probably going ‘what kind of an answer is that’) I don’t know if they’re crushes though, or if I’m just happy that some of my followers talk to me. I have a crush on one of my followers of my other blog though.
Anonymous asked: what's the name of the first instrumental song that your tumblr blog play? I like it
Oh I’m sorry, it’s on shuffle every time someone clicks on my blog, so it’s a different song every time. But, luckily, I only have three, in case you would like to look them up for yourself.
1) I’m not entirely sure of it’s name, because there are so many songs from the movie, but its a theme song from Spirited Away (I love that movie so much). Enter 千与千寻 主题曲 Spirited Away’s Theme Song onto Youtube, and it should be the first video to pop up.
2) Utada Hikaru’s Heart Station (music box version)
3) Utada Hikaru’s Sakura Drops (music box version)
